Wednesday, May 26, 2010

---

Christina Aguilera's Bionic.

"Lift Me Up"

So the pain begins

As the music fades

And I'm left here with

With more than I can take

If you lift me up

Just get me through this night

I know I'll rest tomorrow

And I'll be strong enough to try

When the static clears

And all is said and done

A will realize

That we all need someone

If you lift me up

Just get me through this night

I know I'llrest tomorrow

And I'll be strong enough to try

So when you see me crashing

And there's nowhere left to fall

Will you lift me even higher

To rise above this all

If you lift me up

Said if you lift me up

Said if you lift me up

Will it be higher

When you see me crashing

And theres nowhere left to fall

Will you lift me even higher

To rise above this all

If you lift me up

Said if you lift me up

If you lift me up

Just get me through this night

---

Outstanding song.

Missed 3 water trainings already. Truthfully ? On purpose. What's going on. With me. Really. New change of rule doesn't bother me at all. I read the comments written by the alumnis. Geez. Fucked up alumnis. What makes them think that SP can produce outstanding players every single year. Joko, Jun Yin, Arif, Hafi and me have ever asked before why the seriousness ? No, really why ? FUCK. I think they are the reasons why my batch is in this state. We get chased off. And sometimes I think am I still the stupid one left behind clinging onto something that won't do you any good. Where's the fun ?

If the rules are confirmed though, I'd love for Alex to play IVP thhis year. Haha. Just end this shit.

I can't focus fully in school since last week. Lots to memorise for the upcoming test. Tests right after the selection. Perfect timing. Let's see how I'm going to handle this.

Headache the whole day today. And my nose kind of keep smelling blood. No idea why. Need a haircut.

Dilemma. bullshit politics - in school pool.

Farhan

(11:12 PM)

There'd be only me and hafi left.
And there's the junior fighting each other to get a place in the IVP
team.

Honest truth ? Iv had enough of fighting alrdy. I just dun care. That
was like the last straw. Why'd we have to play like a life is in
question ? It's only a competitive sport. Its not like every batch
could produce wonderful players. I'm jus sick of it all. It's like
okay why should I continue coming? For 2 good reasons. For Hafi. And
for Jiajie and yx who WANs to help me get my ivp medal. Those are the
only reasons. When u join sp canoepolo, you join a new path of
uncertain future. And that is a fact.

Selection this week. Fuck that.

My best buddy's going for his hand op tomorrow. His face already spell
the special word to me: freedom. Haha notice I have to use the word
freedom ? It's as if We're caught in a cage like dat. Wish him speedy
recovery of his hand.

I told my mom that next year, I don't want any photos taken as
mementos. Ive had enough memories etched in my mind. A good lesson
I'll nvr forget.

Upgraded my MacBook hdd to 500GB !! Awesome shit. Paid from my own
pocket. :]

Stop pushing it you guys. All of you. I will explode.

Sent from farhan's iPhone. :]

Lots of flashbacks on second night. Just alone.
I see their nicks and status spelling one word: Freedom.
Really wonder how much have their life changed. Issit better ? Don't
they miss going back at all ? Angry man.

Played a full length game for the first time in 2 weeks. That bad. And
it's really tiring. Need to get the engine started again.

Selection's next Sunday. Wad selection ? We're so in it. Arif's right
and he got me thinking again. Hmm. We are so damned. But heck, we've
received shit for such a long time. ^^
Speaking of which I must say sometimes you don't know when the seniors
will be fuckers at certain point of times. Dats probably why we don
click. They think they are entertaining when it's obvious it's an
insult they are shooting. Fuck it.

Damn. I think I've shrunk. Can't buy my clothes wif ease lol. My legs
are smaller than size 8. WTF. Waist 28 is super loose for me. Wts.
Issit me or the clothes ???? Can't buy shit today. Got myself a new
pair of running shoes. :] imma run faster now. Hehe.

My body's a little weird. I get faster as I run longer D. I always
lose out at the start but catch up like crazy later on. Haha. It's not
mental man. I've tested myself.

Havainas at 50% off. Gonna check it out tmr. :]

FYP is driving me a little red and green and white.

Wednesday slots are back. Haha.

Sent from farhan's iPhone. :]

No rowing again for this period. WTF. I feel like I'm screwed.
Everyones screwed. Lol. So we are heading out to Kallang tomorrow -
again. It's been so long. Except that the last time, there were more
people. :/

Ran to botanic yesterday for the first time wif my batch teammates.
There was only me and Arif anyway. I sure can pace a long D. I'm not
engineered for sprints haha. If i can last that long then how come I'm
tired easily when on water. Hmm weird again. Mental I guess ? Anyway
I'm aching like crazy now. Still can row tmr. :)

I'm finally understanding my lessons in class. Slowly trying to get it
right. Not giving up. Probably only having problems with LFC's class.
He's a little weird. Haha. Schl has been smooth with lots of free
times. FYP might be jeopardizing it soon. :/

Oh well. Early morning row tmr. :]

Farhan's iPhone