No exercise or anything - rot. Lol
Ok.
Bottomline - it was a complete slack these 3 days.
I had planned to run 12km behind my house this morning. But I woke up at 11am and didn't feel like going out. Lol.
During these 3 days I downloaded a total of 500 songs to my laptop. Mixed old and new. The 100 exclusive remixes I downloaded took up 1GB of space. But they are hell good remixes. Enough to last a club for a week. I got hooked to Poker Face remixes.
There's Lil Wayne's single to listen to but it's fugly. LOL. I mean he created an awesome rock track but his voice destroys it. I just think he's not made for rock music. Lol. Wait and see for his 'Rebirth' coming April this year.
Lilly Allen's 'The Fear' EP leaked. Well not really, just that someone bought it and shared it with the rest online. Can't help it even if it is called illegal. Singapore doesnt have Itunes store and the EP is available digitally only. SO fuck that really. And one of the song's title is 'f*** you' which is super nice track (especially the lyrics lol). It goes something like "Fuck You, Fuck You very very much". LOL. DAMN they censored the word fuck. But the leaked demo wasn't censored but had a ridiculous quality so the latter was better. The 4 track EP was good. Expecting a lot from this album. It will be out on my Birthday. But of course I will have it earlier. Anytime next week I bet. :)
Christina Aguilera has a new track for The Spirit soundtrack and it is a really nice track. 7 Mins long but it's good. Haha.
Alright enough with the music already.
CNY holidays ends today. Injuries and aches all recovered. Prepared for more aches for tomorrow's training. Gonna try and learn a new skill with Hafi tomorrow. Ah and we are buying wet suits for the first time tomorrow. I'd say white is cool. Lol but then again we are super tanned so it might not be a good matching. We shall try it out and see tomorrow.
Sometimes I wonder why I don't have white hair. Haha! These recent 3 weeks, I've been worried and scared. It's been ugly really. But like I said, I cope with it. :)
I had a few moment of thought 2 nights ago before I slept. I stupidly felt disappointed but I keep telling myself I know my own limits. Forgot to mention my mum have given me the green light to quit religious class. that was the last thing in my life that keep me connected to my own religion apart from prayers of course. Since young, I've always had classes and it was consecutively on every year. I have mixed feeling knowing that I'm quitting it. I hope I won't stray away. Haha I know I won't.
The Wedding Game movie is not nice.. Haha..
Few trainings back Wei Liang said I should eat dinner often with them and bond. And I told him "We are already bonded enough what". Lol. He said " Where got". I didn't know wad to think when he said that. It was true that I've not fully bonded with my own team yet. People may see me as being anti social and such. Haha. Honest truth ? I'm not. Oh come on. People who knows me can vouch for me. I did fine with my DASE classmates but for canoe polo friends, hmm a little problem for me. Lol. I seriously just don't know why. It's just like that. Just so anyone would know: I can go on talking ublynonsense stuff for almost 6 hrs straight please. But even when I'm quiet during trainings, I observe - like a lot. Lol. During game and after game whatever it is. Bottomline - I have my own reasons as to why I don't go out after trainings tgt often. Lol.
And Wei Liang says that my hand looks retarded (as in literally) when I try to shoot a ball. Hmm.
A lot of thoughts unsaid.
Farhan
I stayed at home
A little different with this post.
Let the posters and covers do the talking.
These were the things that kept me entertained since yesterday.
Watched:
ifUseekthis
What the hell was I thinking ?
Inevitable.
It was short.
It was fun. Awesome friends met.
And it's really ended.
What a decision made.
My Life Would Suck..
..like this. Lol.
3 on 3's jus ended. Sad I couldn't play that much. It was all for the best of the team. Sounds like I drag m team down hor ? Don't get it wrong. Talking about it would just make me feel more angry so lets just say it's ended and that's that. 6th place. Done. Shh.
It's unofficial but yeah, I've stopped one major committment - like permanently. It's sad. No no I'm really sad. But people say I deserve it and scold me and say about me for taking up so much. Thinking I would do well in all. I had high hopes for myself. I took things for granted. I really wanted to excel in all 3. But I never did. Not 1. For that, it's been bothering me a lot. And so I also found someone having almost the same problem as me. As much as I wanted to help, I couldn't say much. I'm in a hot soup myself.
They want to see me, but they don't talk to me and they don't know anything about me. That's what I thought. So many things in my mind and this is going to be a difficult month for me. I'm pressed to do better for 2 things. If I am ever never going to succeed for these, I will really feel damn down - like really down as I'm already telling myself not to give up at all currently. I have said too much.
I may be all smiles. I may be listening to music calmly. Deep down though, I was never happy - never ever.
New Kelly Clarkson. Confirm a radio hit.
I'm turning 19 real soon. 19 - like wow ? Start behaving like a 19 year old already ? Lol. I should. What's a proper 19 year old character like ? Get a girlfriend like soon ? Lol.
Forgot to mention too that I'm on Windows 7 Beta. Not bad. Lol. Kind of lazy to say more but yeah, if you want to try the beta yourself, go to: www.windows7.com
School tomorrow. Tomorrow's going to be a little slow-paced and less stressful for me. Not that I need it. I want it. :)
Farhan
2nd week of 2009.
A different vibe felt already.
2009's very unpredictable for me. That's what I think. Haha
Got back from polo 3-on-3 seniors competition. It was exciting for them. Especially during the finals between Lloyd's team and NP's team. I saw Yao Guang there lol. Anyway it was initially 3-0 and then it became 3-3. I felt that SP was too complacent when they knew they were leading. I thought that was bad. SP won eventually, with the golden goal. Amazing game. Me and my mates were a little nervous nearing the end of the game too - for what I also have no idea. Haha.
And next week, it would be the junior's category.
Exciting.
Went out to Wisma and made some customized shirts from Nike store. Shaun's designs are nicer. Zz. Haha. My font color and type is not that appealing but yeah not that ugly too though. i'm going to make a red and white one soon. Its 50 dollars per tee o.O
Ciara's new first single is cool. I like this kind of groovy slow R&B slongside urban and Britney's pop. I figure out this song will be oout like a month later in Singapore and by that time, I'll be sick of the song already. I always had that. Haha. Oh well.
There's nothing interesting to mention of this few weeks. CNY coming up. It's going to be a boring day. Hmm.
Farhan
I accept.
I accept..
..all of the wrong ways that I have led myself with last year. I realise it all and I will learn - more than anyone around me I hope. I've got 3 major things to focus in my life last few months unlike my friends. I daresay. It's alright, it's fine. This won't hinder me anymore from whatever I wan right now. I understand that my new stand might make me regret in the future after poly life. I will try not to fret. Bottomline: I will cope.
2009's arrived.
Farhan
