I cannot believe 3 weeks ended just like that. Hmmm.
Went out with Shaun and entered HMV. The bonus tracks were tempting so I bought the Deluxe edition still. Lol. I've got their albums since their first mainstream one. This is their 3rd good album. I don't know what I'm saying. Lol. A good $18.95:
o.O Went out on Christmas and Mum bought PS3. Woots. Lesson learnt: Never to sell my playstation no matter how bored I am with it. I remembered selling my PS2 which was only 2 months old. So so dumb of me. Bought NFS Undercover and Metal Gear Solid 4. Omg NFS looks so damn good. Lol. Haven't touch MGS 4 yet. I'm not going to spend money on 1st hand games that often. Lol. Blardy expensive please. Anyone got good 2nd hand PS3 games ? Lol. I'll buy good RPG games. On lookout for cheap but good condition Call of Duty 5. :)
Twilight movie was damn goood. I never knew vampires could be portrayed so cool. With that, I have decided to read on the twilight book series. So I bought 'New Moon' on my way to SYFC that day. Still at the first few pages. Haha
'Circus' is still on heavy rotation in my Ipod. Lol. Awaiting the 3rd single news.
I think I've made my stand in my committment issue. But I am so damn afraid I have made the wrong choice. No wait, I really think I have made the wrong choice. But who can change my mind right ? I pray and hope I do not regret in the future. Shall see circumstances.
And frankly I've been enjoying my polo trainings although it's real sad I can't come often. I am damn pleased with myself last night. Don't care wht you think lol but I was able to dip underneath the middle of a boat. WOOTS. I usually only had the strength to dip at the side of opponent's boat but I can do it in the middle now. Gosh. That's pretty motivating. Haha. Time to give my best for the upcoming important events. :)
Wowow I'm totally spekaing my mind.
Farhan
(1:28 PM)
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Merry Christmas ya'all.
Farhan
(11:54 AM)
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
I'm pretty busy with..
Canoeing and SYFC.
Yes I dare admit that. Haha.
I was a little unstable last week and have missed out on a lot of things. But I decided that I'll probably trudge through. One thing will eventually have to stop at the end. Like I have been frank with my friends that I have feeling I'm going to be dropped from SYFC. I've given it my all frankly. Studying for each flight the night before the due flights. Pretty stressful you know. Like tomorrow is my sortie 4. o.O I can't believe I endured all the shitz. Haha. And I was trying to memorise the after-start checks (Lemme recall): Throttle set to 1200RPM, fuel pressure rising within 30 secs, fan on, comms 1 and 2 on, ADF on, Transponder on standby mode, dead cut check, ammeter indicating, suction gauge 5-6 inches, AH, DI, Turn coordinater and after all of that, do the R/T call. Is that it ? I didn't refer to anything. Was looking at the book while watching the Nonya show too. Lol.
Barbeque with the peeps last night. Too much foood bought. Haha. Hosted at Kenny's house. Mini gathering. Was tired and smelly when we went home. Pictures coming when Jenn's shared them with me.
Got myself Fall Out Boy's 'Folie A Deux' CD at HMV. Not a bad album. Been buying their albums since their first one that's why.
Ergh supper's arrived. Lazy to continue typing. Haha. Will continue after training tomm. :P
Farhan
(10:11 PM)
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I just..
..want to go out and chill all day long. I don't want to think of anything else. I want peace and more peace (of my mind).
Blasting 'Womanizer' has been a daily routine for me since September.
Farhan
(6:18 PM)
Friday, December 12, 2008
flying is not easy..
I still remember clearly when I had the impression that being a pilot was a common goal among guys here. Indeed it is. 70% of any guys who are still studying that you meet in Singapore will have a common dream to be a pilot. And I find it kind of boring already. Lol.
And how many of the people know how hard it is to be a successful pilot ? Lemme give u a revised summary of it: out of 200 'students' taken by RSAF every year, only 30 will make it to be a confirmed pilot trainee. o.O
And there me and my friends were in secondary school, wanting to make flying career a true dream. Yes that was my dream indeed. But looking at circumstances now, I've list out a number of options for myself. hehe.
Being in SYFC is a golden opportunity. You get a real taste of being a young pilot trainee. But for me, it isn't anything similar to rowing a boat in the pool or throwing a polo ball into the net. Polo may be physically demanding but flying is so bloody mental demanding. You HAVE TO have a quick-thinking mind. And you may say it's almost similar to driving. No way bro. Control is not equal to steering wheel.
Why I'm saying all of these is because my 2 sorties have been horrible. The 2nd was not as good as the first one. He keeps saying I give him the impression of being unprepared all the time. Actually half true. I am damn prepared but the moment we are on air.. his attitude to teaching becomes like @$%#@$%!%$. How do I focus with his pressurising instructions ? Lol. Do this do that all at one go. Yes multi tasking is important. Looking at fuel and gas gauges. RPM readings. Vertical speed indicator to be considered when pitching and such. Oh and the bloooooody G-force when pitching down with a huge swerve.
Adding on to my nervous sweat in the air is my non-complying body with the sky. I don't feel good after 30 mins on air. Hmmmmm. Like I get motion sickness each time he turns. And each time I cock up my trimming procedure, I feel even worse. Looking down at macritchie reservoir and seletar and woodland areas. Gosh so tiny. And then I truly realise how small Singapore is. I could see causeway bridge and johor bahru and on the right side I could see the next end of Singapore already. Quite interesting actually.
Goh CL made me do every single thing and allowed me to see from the book as a guide along the way. I think that's quite good. Although again he keeps scolding zz. Anyway the radio calls are like damn FUGLY. Because the tower people speak suuuuuper soft. At some point you just feel like replying: "Fark la. can't you speak slower and louder than this." It's on broadcasting channel mind you so yeah you have to be careful of what you say. And so I didnt manage to do my calls properly mainly because I can't catch up with what they say. At times I just feel like laughing.
Bottomline: I am getting a bad feeling about my performance in SYFC. Lol. It's not that I'm lousy or lazy but just that the demands are pretty tough. I'll trudge through. See how far I can go. I did tell people about my recent 2nd sortie but they just keep saying how much I must keep trying and treasure this opportunity. The thing is I do treasure this opportunity and I do try my utmost best. They don't understand how tough it is to stay on. Lol. Our fate all lie in the hands of the instructor taking us. Like I see Wong CC chopping off like hell lot of students already. Haha.
And yes I went for polo still right after the flying thingy. It was a horrible feeling actually after landing. Thought of going home but I know I said I would come so I had to. Had a short training and yeah my right thumb is still in pain. Swollen. Zzzz.
And I didnt want to stay at home all the way today so I went to school for a little basketball. Zzz. Upon reaching, I actually wanted to sit and chill around rather than to play. Dunno why. Went to the new JP after that and go home.
I'm like totally addicted to Starbuck frapuccino now. Starbucks now open at JP. Oooh.
How's Quicksand by Britney ? Haha. I think it's not too bad a slow song. And congrats to her for selling 505k CDs in 1 week. :p
I met Alan on bus today. It's been so long. Way long. I still remember NCC days. He was my CLT. He asked about me and a few of my friends. Haha. And I asked him about Jun Jie. True enough Jun Jie was from SP canoe polo team too! How come he doesn't come back. If he comes back weekly like other alumnis I would definitely ask him to personally impart his skills to me. HAHA. I'll ask him if I meet him one day. But really, it's been so long. I could just reminisce those trainings.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaargh."
Farhan
(12:53 AM)
Monday, December 08, 2008
Injury..
Wha lao.. Before training even started.. I got injured.. &#&#$%^%$&&*!?!?*^#$
Threw balls with Wei Liang for a while and he suggested throwing a fast one while I attempt to catch it. Of course I didn't succeed. Lol. So.. the fast ball smacked my right thumb like damn hard. Like damn pain pleasee. I knew it at once I sprained it. And I went like "Wtf ? I am so screwed during ball passing later." True enough during cross passing, I can't catch the ball and there was one senior alumni who gave a super speeding ball.. LIKE THANKS LA. Lol. I was stunned pleasee. OW. Oh and the joint is swollen now. Lolol. I don't know why I'm laughing in pain. Haha.
And o.O Chong Yuan's expressed his opinions. Hmmm. Well what he said was true so no comments. But actually I wasn't happy only at one thing. Not what he said but .. ergh. Btw Why the hell do both brothers look at me when they are talking about the whole team. Nabei. Made me feel like I'm the one who does all the wrong things. It's true that we need to train together. And omfg he pin pointed me as rarely come for training! Kidding. Haha. I told him if I didn't come, I always have something on and that is why. Point taken. And Wei Liang, Arif and Hafi should know that.
I'm like being stressed down with certain things now. Like Jerren tells me to stop canoe and think about my future carrier with SYFC and like Shaun telling me to quit canoe to focus on my studies and SYFC and like a comment I heard from one of the year 3 seniors that I should go fly an aeroplane and no need come polo anymore. And like I heard Adam last time say that I should quit SYFC to focus on polo. Wow.
Firstly, I enjoy the sport I've just gotten into. Since secondary school, I've always wanted to join a school team sport. Canoe polo is just cool for me. SYFC is a golden opportunity for me. Even being the last in the batch, I've learnt quite a lot. For those of you who wants to be a pilot: IT'S NOT SIMPLE I SWEAR. You may get an 'A*' for theory but up in the air, it's totally different. As for my studies, Physics HAVE NEVER been my thing. My close fren should know that. But I will TRY MY VERY BEST of course. So I really don't what to do exactly now. I've got 3 weeks to think through. After 3 on 3, I'm considering a temporary break from water trainings. That is very bad but.. As for SYFC, I don't even want to think of being phased out. Well if you guys think it's easy for me to choose the best for myself, it's not. But hell I do appreciate your concern seriously. I could do with some help.
And it's like I notice people changing - including myself. And it's like I don't really enjoy school nowadays. Poly's fun because of the 'no-restrictions' thingy.
Went Sentosa on Saturday with my class guys. Just the usual people. For a short while only though. I was sick anyway. Had no appetite for the whole day actually. I didn't have dinner even when I reached home.
Oh and chihuahuas are friggin cute dogs. Yeah I watched the Beverly Hills Chihuahua movie. It is good. There was one such movie about dogs and had the same storyline but just a little difference here and there which I watched when I was 7 years old. I still remember it. It displayed true friendship and loyalty to owners among dogs. Wish I could remember the title.
Oh and I've got my hands on Fall Out Boy's new album titled 'Folie A Deux' due for release next week :P. Not bad but it's just their same old sound. Catchy still. I really like Lily Allen's new single titled 'The Fear'. Will post it here when I done with Britney's Songs. Because you won't hear be hearing it on radio in Singapore soon so I can take my time. Can't wait for The All-American Reject's to leak sometime this week.
It's Hari Raya Aidiladha today. Happy celebrations.
PS: I want to let you guys see britney's 27th Birthday cake. Uber cool circus cake. I wish it could be possible for my 19th Bday in 2 months time. LOL. Look:
And look at britney's expression (Hahahaa):
Farhan
(7:29 AM)
Friday, December 05, 2008
Britney's GMA Performances.
This isn't a music blog - still my personal blog. Haha. Thought that britney's performance at GMAs were stunning so I posted it here.
And I find Lily Allen's first single very very very enticing. First single apart from britney these few weeks to cacth my attention lol.
And exam ended. The whole 3 weeks to myself to do whatever I want lol. But I'm not feeling well at the moment. Luckily it's not a fever. It always have to start from a sore throat - always. So now my I'm officially having flu.
Farhan
(9:23 AM)
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Do you even know how I feel ?
Does anyone ever know...
... how stressful this week had been for me ? ... how much I try to force the knowledge in but panic takes over me ? ... that at the very mention of tests especially when I'm done with one paper, makes my heart squelch ? Please don't do that. ... the feeling I'm having during this few weeks ? ... how sad I am with my social circle ? ... how much of a fake smile I put on my face ?
Geez. I guess no one will ever know. It's like "I tell (show) them the way I feel, it's like they hear but they're really not listening. I have really good days, and then I have bad days. It's really bad."
('_')
Term 3's ending anyway. All the best to myself for maths tomorrow.
And so I took a shot of it with my N95 at macdonalds right after buying it lol. It's the deluxe edition and arrived at 6pm at HMV. Lol. Like finally man. Been waiting since September.. Crazy. Album quality now wooooots. :)
Nthg to say apart from tests. Ending in 3 more days. :)
