"I still remember the world from the eyes of a child." - Evanescence.
'Fields of innocence' is a beautiful song by evanescence which talks of your innocence when you were still a child. You're looking at your past from your present teenage or adult age. Have I truly traded my heart for the real world ? We all have. We have to. I don't know how cruel or bad the real world is. I don't know if I'm changing in any way. It feels so different when I'm in my new environment. You'll think about all these when there are differences between you and the people around you. Even my best pals have changed. I dare not say I have not. Sadly though, I wish people and things around me don't have to change quickly.
Sometimes I don't understand either how anyone could treat their newly met friends better than a close friend whom you've known for more than 5 years. Why the sudden change ?
Thank god things in class isn't so competitive. Yes there are too many intelligent people in class. I have made little effort in staying in the same calibre as my class is. It's worrying. The mere mention of tests and exams gets me quiet and stressed. I don't want to think of how many more years till I'm free of all these. That was a bad habit I had in secondary school - always counting the months till O level ends. I guess school never really started for me. I hope things don't go so bad. I really don't wish to see the day where I have to take forward modules.
High fever. Then fever for 3 days - today's the 4th. It's maddening that I had to miss medical checkup last Saturday because of that. I had wanted to get that over and done with. I had 2 nights thinking about blood tests. Don't mock at me. Some people tend to be afraid of needles especially when it's been so long since I had an injection. But really. Now I have to skip 2 saturday water trainings. Well its not on purpose for sure. And I would not mind going for training tomorrow but I haven't fully recover yet. I must recover fully before Friday. Damn, my body immune system is weak. Oh yes, Wednesday's SYFC interview, I passed it. It was pretty nerve wrecking. Especially waiting for that call on Thursday morning. Watched 'The Dark Knight' after the interview to ease my mind.
Projects after one another. wtf? what's up with this term. Suddenly all projects come shooting. I'm not complaining. Just wondering a little here as to why it all came suddenly. IDEAS 3 boards project have been put on hold today. Thank god.
Now focusing on another 'marketing and innovation' project that is really a damn big deal to us all. Couldn't think or contribute much. Still sick. I'm glad to do the designing and content alignment of the presentation though.
My fucking XP gave me problem again. It's completely dead and needs to be re-installed. Thank my mom for the external harddisk she bought for me to backup my data. My 2nd best friend now. I just love the extra humongous space.
I need new music. Can't wait for september. Especially britney's comeback single. She is ready to take on the world I tell you.
Farhan
THIS IS CRAZY.
Nah, I'm just complaining. CIP, TCS and Ideas projects are piled up. Oh wait I forgot that even engeineering maths have project (wtf?). Theres also DE and PEE tutorials that I missed out. Oh and the exams are in 5 weeks time. Wtf la. I am scared. Like really. Damn la. And next week is my SYFC interview. That would be scary wednesday. And if they don't accept me.. Sigh..
Britney made herself public recently and gosh she's gorgeous. The world has never seen her in a prettier image since 2004. She was smiling and full of confidence. It was awesome. She's coming back grasping her title that was lost in the recent years. She's written songs based on her anger and revenge out on paparazzi's and Britney-haters. She's even auditioned dancers for her upcoming videos. Seriously things are looking up so well for her. Nothing negative at all. We'll wait and see how she's going to wow the world again.
I am damn lethargic - and super duper tanned. Need to get sun block - fast. Maintain my tan. My nose is burning every Saturday and my face feels so cooked. My arms are getting in shape especially my right arm. All thanks to the intensive rowing. We had a game again today and I tried my best to chiong and bang the opponents. I've got a problem with the banging part. Need momentum and strength to do it. Aggresiveness has never been my virtue in sports. Woo I'm going to have to improve. I'm getting brownier. Lol. I've overworked my right arm. If it still hurts, I'm considering not going for next Tuesday's training. I need to let my right arm rest. It's not an excuse. : )
Here's 2 pictures from today's training. Was testting outmy N95 camera. LOL.
Farhan
What a week.
Projects are coming in one by one now.
Even Maths lesson has project assignment. Due date is on 2nd Semester. Relax relax first. haha
Missed lots of Tuesday's gym training. So made up for it this week last wednesday. Went to gym with Lee Hao and Arif. I can't believe the running was tiring. What happened to my legs and stamina. Lol. Didn't expect myself to be that tired running 1.6km. Did a number of biceps workout. Now I have to emphasize on running and bicep workout to myself. After gym we asked Lee a couple of shit questions.. lol. All about marriage. Haha. It was funny shit.
Friday's religious class lesson was eye opening and super interesting. It was about spirits and Satans. I saw for the first time a video of real exorcism. It made me question myself on what I want to believe in. So I think I believe that such things exist in our world. But I shall not believe in ghosts. A dead person can never come back alive and that's that.
Sun burn at my face from Saturday's canoe training. Not so severe thank god but it hurts everytime I touch it. Canoe training is getting more in depth and today's was the best. Firstly I succeeded in doing a turning 360 degrees but unfortunately I could only do 1 - just once. Very sad. Lol. Putting that aside, we played our first game today! Our very first game. It was freaking exciting. I was the Zoner (defender). It was super hard la. And guess who we played against with? The alumni. Such a huge challenge.. Of course we lost but I think it was a damn good experience. Stamina, speed and control on water is very important. Throwing isn't really an issue yet. But it was a good one. Would want to have a game for every training.
Farhan
Sometimes I know I can't lie to myself.
I don't like how the things are around me and that's that.
It's almost reaching to the limit.
Why did things have to change so much. I seriously dislike it.
I discover I can't blend in anymore even though I've tried. I can only do so much.
:(
farhan
Ergh Vanessa Hudgen's album sucks.. Lol.
Listening to it makes me feel gay. Don't know why. Already 'Sneakernight' is crap. Then album does not have anything outstanding like her previous self-titled album. She sounds like she's to become Hilary Duff. That's my opinion. Well that's just her. I wouldn't recommend you guys to buy it. LOL. Propaganda haha. Apart from her, there is nothing else new. New John Legend is good - real good. He went out of his piano line and got into a little of pop. I like. Lol. And and Britney is improving real good. There's a lot of positive comments on her from the people whom she's working with on the new album. The reporter for E-News got a preview of a song she had done and said it was a damn good track. How I wish we get to listen to it too. She's been hitting the studio a lot too. And the most recent awesome news is that she is reuniting with Madonna. Whee another collaboration from them both. 'Me Against The Music' was a damn good track. I want more of it. Haha.
Yesterday was one of the worse no wait, it was the worse sprint training I ever had. Imagine how painful it is when you've done till 290 and they restarted the counting to 0. Everyone went like 'wtf?!'. Yeah I admit I was dying. I could speak of that for some of us too. But really, it was shit. We endured throughout though. I think we spent like 50 mins in push-up position. Wa lao.. They promised us 220 push-ups only.. Then it came to 400.. Now I'm aching at my stomach (I really have no idea why) and biceps and everything. I can't turn my neck with ease too. Nevertheless I have to keep telling myself it's training. Haha. Will not give this up of course. :) And I took a T2 boat with Arif too. I had already expected shit lor. The boat keep turning left. Frankly me and Arif could not collaborate well on that damn boat. ZZZ. What a day.
School's back as per normal. I feel that my social circle have changed a little. Oops I'm talking about individual personalities. It's so different. I dislike it of course. But then again things can't always go your way all the time. I feel that we still haven't know each other enough in class too. We need more time. I want the same family settings I had when I was in 5/1. In poly, it feels like every man for himself. I don't know.. I just wish that things could have been way better. I'm having a problem when I go out with friends too. zz.
No more havainas and shorts on Mondays. Long pants and shoes it shall be. Hehe. And we're going to try something real new tomorrow. Frankly we don't understand shit from last week's lecture but yeah, we're going to have it in a practical way and I think we will know better after that. Hoping for a good week ahead of me. :p
Farhan
