Name: [f]arhan
Age: 19
School: Singapore Polytechnic
MSN: devil_farted@msn.com
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Yan Ping
Cheng Yi
CK
Chu Hui
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Winnie
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Rozand
Gilford
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Tresha
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Happy Vesak day. Listened to Christina's 'Understand'. In the song she speaks of herself believing in happiness happening to other people but not her. Until her one and only love came into her life. Her album is so honest and real. I can't wait to see her in concert on June 30. I keep listening to Madonna's latest unreleased track entitled 'Hey You'. Supposed to be out this month. Each time I listen to the song, it's as if someone is telling me or rather advising me. It feels like someone is helping me. It is like Madonna telling me herself to love myself before loving others. Telling me to open my heart, to change, don't rely on others and that I've got a choice to make sense. Listen to the song people. It is touching. At least that's what I think. You're listening to Christina Aguilera's 'Understand'. I love this one. Oh yes and these are my newly added music for the month: - Linkin Park - Minutes to Midnight
- Maroon 5 - It won't Be Soon Lon Enough
- Natasha Bedingfield - Natasha Bedingfield
I got so uptight at the music store just now when I saw Linkin Park's latest album in a special edition. It has music videos in it. DRAT BLAST IT. Farhan
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hmmm.
Tough week ? Nah. It has been awesome. I must be lying through my teeth right now. Nerves triggered loads of time.
I've still got school till next Tuesday. Trying to get used to this. I should be forcing myself to study this month. Give me that discipline. Screwed up my chemistry experiments today (sort of). I wonder how the REAL practical exam is going to be like. I'd like to see my test tubes explode while on the exam. haha.
I gather and have thought that things were way fucking better months ago or possibly weeks ago. Things will get better wouldn't it. I mean by nature.... Anyway there is possible a whole more of things that I should get exposed to before I leave this jurassic school (seems to me). Honestly kind of getting sick wearing blue clothings everyday too. Some people in my class say we've got 3 more months. Someone call me dumb please. For all I know I'm going to miss this school when I reach 18 or 19 years old. Kind of too late I think. Poly or JC ? People make it sound like 'money or life' thingy.
If there was one time I got nervous for my english orals is this year's. Like Mr Singh's presence really helped. I entered the room not sane at all. How pathetic could the answers be ? I'd better pass.
Vesak's day tomorrow. And I am certainly ashamed to say that I do not know what particular race or religion celebrates this day. Vesak for one thing sounds like an Indian word to me. I mean no offence really but I never bother to ask my parents about this day. So I only knew today that Buddhists celebrate Vesak day. How interesting. And I certainly do not know what to do tomorrow. I can't be staying at home. I'll only be cheating myself. haha. Thought of watching the movie 'Next'... Hmm.
MT O levels. I'm praying so damn hard to do well for this one. It is over already. The paper's considered real easy. I mean I've never been tested on EASY malay vocababulary words in my whole of secondary school life. Should I catch up on school work tomorrow ? Spend my day painting my art ? Go out ? I'll see how my mood goes tomorrow morning. Countdown 15 more days to Fantastic Four: Rise Of The Silver Surfer.
Now that I heard that Dumbledore's REALLY dead and no magical miracles will occur (just a rumour), I don't know what else to say. JK Rowling better'd tease us with those kinds of hints. She also confirmed many many years back that she will not kill of the three main characters of the book - Harry, Ron, Hermione. But she claims in this seventh book, 2 of the main characters will die. What's up with that ? To think I've still got 2 more months to rack my brains over that question. haha.
I want to feel better. I want to forget about certain things but it sure is damn hard. It is so easy to see the dysfunction in the whole picture.
Farhan
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If time could reverse to 2 weeks earlier, I would have done a hell lot of things. 5th year prophecy I guess.
"Now I can't walk and I can't talk.. I'm not falling apart"
Farhan
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It's funny how I'm able to score 75% for the first time in four years for my MT language. Unfortunately, it is just a practice paper. But I did it on my own with the guidance of advices and templates. It worked fine. All I need to do is remember just these steps until next Monday which on that day too, I will 'unleash' al of the methods I've learnt to tackle my malay grammar errors. I've gotten more confident. Please let me jump up 3 grades.. to B3.
It has been a pretty long winded week of mother tongue. Someone please tell me something new.
Like what will I ever be doing this June holidays. I know I need to clock in 80hrs of study. Shit. I wonder if I will still be sane after completing 80 hours of study.
Still addicted to 'Wake Up Call'. Can't stop.
If there's any way to make me feel better, enlighten me.
^^
Farhan
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I found the lovely poem somewhere. (Its in a post before this one)
Maroon 5's new album rocks to the core.
A hell lot of LOVELY love songs. Songs about confessions from a guy's view. And I'm able to connect with it a little but of course I got no experience with romance. :) But the songs are super great. You are listening to 'Wake Up Call'. It's about your girlfriend betraying to you (sleeping with another man) and you caught her in the act. Then you shoot your mouth off at the guy too. Argh I can't get the right lyrics for this song.
Focus on MT for this week is going fine. I am try to give my best. I don't want to face Saturday.
That is all for now. Enjoy the song.
^^
Farhan
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This goes out truly to all the people I love. ^^
The way their tears
make you want to
change the world
so that it
doesn't hurt her anymore.....
Yet
regardless
if you love them,
hate them,
wish they would die
or
know that you would die
without them ...
it matters not.
Because
once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become
everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to
the
depths of their souls
and
you say a million things
without trace of
a sound,
you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed
within
the rhythmic beatings
of her very heart.
We love them for a million
reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.
PS: I loved this poem and got it from somewhere. :)
Farhan
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According to my calculations, I'm 2 hours pregnant with the barbeque I just had.
My term of giving birth would be the same as relieving myself in the toilet which i presume would take place tomorrow morning.
HAHA.
Okay I did smile. Allow me to after these few days please. It has been horrendous. I'm not exaggerating. But never mind. Although I must admit I still do think about it. It has been hard to get it out of my mind.
Now as I have said in my previous post, Madonna and ashlee simpson are working on their new albums already. Super exciting. Ashlee's working with Timbaland too. Madonna has done a duet with Justin Timberlake. They aren't releasing it too soon. Britney Spear's new music will be arriving around September. Expect a Club type of music. Hmm.. Linkin Park's album is awesome. Go buy it guys ! Will be getting Maroon 5's new album next week. Kelly Clarkson's album will be arriving June 26th. Panic! At The Disco has a new LP coming right up too. Fall Out Boys are praising their new single so much. I don't know why. Btw Madonna's upcoming new song entitled "Hey You" is a very innocent track. It is not the same as her previous dancey album.
Barbeque right now. It's great. Cousin Daniel's birthday. I'm so bored so I am blogging.
Hectic schedule next week. I'd call it the 'must speak in malay' week. Must focus Farhan..
Farhan
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These few days I wake up in the morning hoping that I would feel better naturally like I have always do. It is sort of a built-in 'heat cooler' in me. But it has been different. I can't. I feel so greatly upset.
It is great to hear that Madonna and Ashlee Simpson have new album projects. It is all a matter of time. Britney Spears herself is showing great recovery in the music scene. Christina Aguilera is coming to Singapore for the first time. That very sentence made m smile. Haha. I mean really. She is an awesome singer. It'd be great if I could go for her concert.
Farhan
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I managed to finish about 20% at 8.30pm haha. Here's my art.
I'm feeling pathetic and a little upset..
Really. Anyway this is the song I like the most in the album. I must say that all of the songs in the album contains impactful lyrics. I love this song anyway. ^^
It's called 'Leave Out All The Rest'.
-------
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
-------
Farhan
Like finally ... I've got it. After like 3 months of waiting haha. I have yet to listen to new tracks but I will later on. I got a free poster along with it. Haha
   Their "LP" logo is like damn cool. Farhan
Mid year exams are finally over.
I still feel the stress..
I think its because of the damn art. I keep procrastinating and never get it done. It is annoying. Someone seem to be telling me that I should have quit art months ago.
I can't wait to get linkin park's new album badly. -.- Don't know why. I see the CD as something precious. Don't know why. They'd better be selling the special editions CDs tomorrow as well. I want the best. Why must Itunes always have the bonus tracks ?? Bloody unfair.
So I guess tomorrow's a nerve wrecking day ? Of course ! We'll be getting most of our exam papers back. And I've not heard a single positive comment from the teacher's at all. We're dead meat..
Fucking Swine
Farhan
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Sigh..
I'm so stressed.
And people would go," YOU SURE NOT FARHAN ?! YOU ? STRESS ? JOKE RIGHT ?"..
FUCKING E MATHS PAPER. FUCKING LONG. I had wanted to give up - almost. CMI. TOTALLY CMI. But anyways I did put in a few percentage of effort. Getting a pass would be sufficient for me I guess ? Haha. Ms Chua better not know my blog address. Lol. Anyways left ART and Chemistry Paper 3 only. PATHETIC. 3 hrs for ART exam ? Can you stand it ? I need a damn break man. CAN I JUST USE COLOR PENCILS ?!
Xue Qi why are you depressed lol.
I've been getting more profile views lately. I think its because I've been giving people too many testimonials lately. Thk you Rozand (Retard) for that flattering comment Haha. Arif's cursing by now Haha. My tag board's kinda dead. I guess Caroline's not viewing my blog anymore? LOLS.
Thats it. Next Monday, Minutes to Midnight will be released. Can't wait. I DON'T WANT TO LEND IT TO ANYBODY WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I don't care. lol. Go buy yourselves. HAHAHAHAHAWAHAHA.
Justin Timberlake's working with Madonna on new music. So cool. This Friday's my break day. I wanna 'gorge' myself with activities.
I should be doing my art now. I DUNNO what to hand in tomorrow. Murder me someone.
Farhan
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Drat blast it..
Combined Humans paper sucks.. Super long even though its only 1h 30mins paper each. My fingers sure exercised a lot. Haha. Didn't come to school on Friday as I've no paper on that day but tomorrow I have A maths which is kinda damnit.. The scariest fact ? I've not revised and I've forgotten about 40% of what I've learnt. I can foresee that it is going to be a mind racking and hard paper too.  So I say goodbye again to the Samsung i600 I was talking about last week. Afraid that its value worth will drop as the months passes, my dad had traded it for an N73. Frankly I prefer the N73 than the i600. Its more user friendly and I really said wow to it's 3.2 megapixel camera ability. But I don't understand why it's keypad area is super damn small. Typing is difficult. Screen is super big. And I thought it uses micro SD card ? It doesn't look like micro SD to me. Haha. There's my phone packaging box on the right. I used the phone's camera itself for this shot. I think not bad. Haha.
 6 new albums added to my virtual music library (computer and mp3 player). But I've bought only 5 out of the 6. I borrowed Vincent't Avril Lavigne haha. I guess I was to broke to buy the pink album haha. but I'm saving for Linkin Park and Maroon 5 this month. 14th and 22nd May 2007. Linkin Park is still in its same route of music style actually. "Given Up" is close to being a metal track in the album. And Linkin Park's website is the coolest rock band's website I've ever seen. It's prelude background music is awesome too.
Farhan
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