Fighting real hard. F the old folks home team we lost to. Zz.

Apparently TP also share the same fate as my team haha. 3 original
players in the team. Interesting.

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I have crashed yes and burnt myself but I'm forcing the fire to
subside. A little water from the outside will help.

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It's tough. Every path.

Yf said it right. Treasure the current team. There's no one else once
it's over. There's only so much though that we can stick together.
Once ivp is over, poof. People will go MIA. That includes me. Maybe.
Pretty sad people want to leave at this juncture.

Gonna make the best of wads left now. It's all there is. Enjoy every
single game. Just enjoy it. Me, Alone doing it.

:]

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Where in hell can I go with 1.9. Feels like there's no oter options
left. I never foresee myself with a dead end. Wad de heck do I do now.
It's like a time bomb. The real pain will come when school's over. I
hated the things that surrounded me upon knowing just now. I feel like
giving it up. All of it. Start afresh with new people. But time will
be the cost. I'm alrdy 20 years old and have yet to enlist. I don't
want to be trash.

I disappoint myself and everyone. What's going on wif my 3 years here ?!

I'm stressed enough with upcoming competitions and the trainings. When
your not a good player. The better ones will say about you. What's
with the extra comments ? Jus fuckin play ur game if you dun wanna
help. I dun fuckin see why I should behave like a friend sometimes.

I have a team. But it's not my original team. People say my original
team is lousy. People always say. The feeling is gone. New feeling has
been set. It's a synthetic feeling. But I still play. It's like we
once sat down tgt and had aims and pointed out ways to improve only to
see most are gone just when it's finishing. Vivo.

I dun feel like doing anything now. I may enjoy now but come 2011, I
have to think of ways to save myself. What the heck. I've concluded:
it's not worth it.

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I'm fighting every week for something and everything and for what ?
Over a medal. I need to program my thinking. It's like C Plus
programming where I'm stuck at If Else.

I feel caged. Stupidly. And there's nowhere else for me to express
these things. I feel like caging up my blog too so I can go more
hardcore on saying the things I want.
Lol.

It was a great last 1 hr yst night as kj taught me how to shoot.

Aaaaargh. My palms are hurting. :/

Good friend bad friend best friend.

New blog song is weirdly nice !

Ok face it. Cheer yourself up and do it right. If they don't want
you to play, they will say it. And I hope they say it earlier. I'm
close to going bonkers thinking about this all the time.

Really Wished I was at the BBQ now.

> Lastly, red singlet holds memories of all da shit. :/

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5 becomes 4. (+3)
How saddening.

We were supposed to trudge through this path together. :/

On to the next one ! :]

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