Name: [f]arhan
Age: 19
School: Singapore Polytechnic
MSN: devil_farted@msn.com
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Yan Ping
Cheng Yi
CK
Chu Hui
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... Ups and downs experienced ..
Sigh.. First time after months that I'm writing a blog entry in the afternoon after school. Finally got the time to do this. Just returned from Macdonalds IMM with Timothy. On the way back we kinda quarelled. I hate that. That was quite of a first time that we were disagreeing on something. I think I'm going to talk for a long time now. I don't believe I am at fault. I am the one witnessing the acts of my own class. People have family problems. Almost everyone have family problems. If you think you have family problems, think again. There are people worst off than you for all you know. My view, my very personal view: You have family problem (or if thats what you claim as it would be!), you resort to other foolish things? You smoke, you do other ugly and STUPID things? Are you really that stupid? Resort to stealing too if you want that item?? Or worst, you take drugs. Thats a totally bad case. I resent these people most of the time. But at the same time, am I perfect myself? Am I in the right position to say about people? I'm not good academically. I know that. People might say that I'm lousy even though I hold the Discipline rank in the councillor board. Maybe I don't know but it could be even my own trusted pals speaking behind my back. I've always give in to people. Yes, I may be weak in all of these I've written. But I AM PROUD to say that I DON'T SMOKE AND HAVE NEVER RESORTED TO ANY FUGLY ACTIVITIES. 3/7.. Whats becoming of our class? Our class, I would claim it to be the king of complains. Why? Your own class.. Why, you would ask. I seem to be able to know whats the matter with us now. Its our attitude. We always think that we are DAMN GOOD. We think that we are cool in whatever that we do. We hate to take advices from teachers or other elders. We respect only those teachers who deserve to be respected. We live in school the way we want it to be. And I dare to say this too: Commonwealthians DON'T HAVE PRIDE IN THEIR SCHOOL UNIFORM. People are constantly tucking out their shirt. Yes, I have tucked out before but at least I reazlize what I'm doing. I stopped. I know I always try to improve. Oh yes, back to what I was talking about. We complain whenever there is homework. Mrs Terrence is right - "You people wants activites bu do not want to even help in organising them!". I tried to help but I'm too busy with my other stuff. So I thought at that point, if you could smoke then why not help instead. I'm starting to get pissed off with EVERYTHING! Already me and Timothy are drifting apart. I even ever dreamed of losing this friendship. Is it just me? I find that I'm going against anything - everything in fact! I swear. I'm not happy everyone. In NCC in Councillor and in class too. I'm fucked up. Very fucked up over what the hell god knows. I suck too. I suck sooo badly! I think I just ruined my friendship with Arif. That was probably very stupid of me. I won't ever do such a thing ever again. I now prefer to be alone too. I suddenly prefer silence rather than noise and happiness. I just feel that I needed counselling. I just feel that not being born in this world would have been a great thing for me. But then again, being born in this world is soemthing I should cherish. Everything contradicts with everything that I think of. I'm feeling real down now. I'm pleading with everyone now that I need a LONG BREAK. I still want friendship with you people. I beg of all of my friends especially the ones that are very close to me, Please please do not contaminate your life with bad influences and filthy behaviours. Don't! Please don't! PS: I just learned something by myself. I am never going to show understanding to people who have never used their brains to understand themselves and to be sensible. I don't care if you have family problems or what ever fuck. If thats the case I might as well rob a bank at confess that I have family or personal problems that I resorted to this. And what would happen if everyone is to do just that?
Farhan a.k.a. [f]4rt3d
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Eerie days passed...
Real freaky... It seems like I hear many eerie stories related to ghosts this week. My friend getting possed and just yesterday, my emale fren told me something VERY interesting but VERY scary too. I wonder if what she said was real or not. Anyway she made me promise to keep quiet bout it so I'm mumed bout it. Yesterday, Sunday I went for a paint-a-banner session again with choon lock and this time with an extra helper, Timothy. We did pretty ok for s start. We just basically painted the whole outline for the banner. Nothing much done for that day. Then next we headed to IMM to buy my CD and have dinner. We ate at LJS first befroe heading to giant for shopping. Reaching there, I went to look for my stuff. Found the stuff with the help of the worker. Timothy recommended me on a 40 disc set which according to what he says, costs only $5. I took his word for it and went to buy it. He and choon Lock all the way laughed at something which I was not known about. At the cashier, I was to pay $20 for the thing I bought. I was shocked of course. In fact I was damn pissed. It was so damn WTF. I was nearly going to full blast again. I just felt like pressured and angry that they both would trick me like that. I trusted them for it! Plus that was not even my money! That was my committee's money sponsered by the school! Damn I was fucking pissed off! Next, now that I know what it feels like being cheated and laughed at by your own most trusted companions, I was already expecting what Arif would feel if he found out I was the Evonne. I dunno how to explain it to him at all. I don't even know if he would be reading this. Ok, if he is really reading this, then I would really like to say that I'm deeply sorry and didnt mean to hurt your feelings or anything. Evonne I'm sorry too if you felt like I used you or something. Your reputation could have been destroyed by me too ya know. Nevermind that. I would stop doing such stupid acts again. Lastly, from my heart: Life seem to be a ruch and stress for me. I hear of love and hatred everyday. I see my friends everyday too. I see my old good buddys:- Dixon.. Luther.. Knowing that they smoke.. I just wiched they would stop that ugly habit. I'm pleading. I want to ;ead a normal and good life. Timothy I'm dissappointed man. Why are you still trying to get close to people who have talked bad behind you till today? Why don't you realise it ever? Do you think some of your actions are cool? Following people like Shazni.. Sigh. Don't waste your looks just like that will ya?
Farhan a.k.a. [f]4rt3d
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Aftermath of.. CAMP!
Ergh.. Erghz... Erghzz... AaAaArGh! Sec 3 level camp finally over.. Kinda missing it now.. But that camp totally painted a whole new skin color on me man. Reached home yesterday at 3.30 pm. Anyway after that camp, I went to have lunch at LJS with Arif and Timothy. The camp really was interesting. I think that I've managed to feel a little more confident about myself now. I'm kinda happy that I managed to pass all of the stations and activites well. But what I liked most was that I made lots of new friends! I didn't know that Min Jun and me were going to get along real close during the camp. Very intesresting and fun whenever I'm with her. Anyway other people in my team were nice and cooperative too. I would wanna have a second go at this camp if given the chance.. Today.. Now.. 9pm.. Typing an entry.. Tired.. Just returned from tuition and just bought Hilary's latest Most Wanted album. I love the new songs with the remixes too. Nice.. I love the postcards too. Oh shucks! I got 7/36 for my E.maths test. PATHETIC MAN! Shit I gotta buck up.. Oh and by the way I'm going to put one of Hilary's latest songs on my Blogspot blog now.. Till next time..
Farhan a.k.a. [f]4rt3d
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This was group of malay guys at the mediacorp before the debate! Pardon my ugly pose..
By farhan! ^^
9th August!! National Day!
Today is the 9th August!
40 years after Singapore gained its independance! No riots , no troubles and no disasters! So cool. This year's celebration seem to be very extravagant. They are celebrating it everywhere! I love Singapore! --( Sigh.. Just 2 years ago I was involved in National Day as a dancer.. How time flies soo fast..)-- Life goes on normally again (I just keep on repeating this don't I?) .. Yup.. Lasr friday went to Macritchie as a road marshal for NCC.. No difference man. I still ran the girl's route 2 times too.. Awww.. Sorry Timothy to hear that you got 41 for your position in the run. Try harder next year! I'll be running with ya too! That friday too, I went for my dental checkup after that. Reached home at 10. So tired that I slept very early. The next day I went for my councillor meeting and I left an hour earlier with Reuben coz I got tuition. At tuition Alicia smsed and I think that they had all organized an outing to sentosa or something... Anyway, on Sunday too I went for my religious class as usual. Then after that I just stayed at home playing games and chatting online. At night, I prepared my NCC uniform for the next day's event - National day cum Speech Day. It was quite a dull but lively one. The whole school was enthusiastic and participative! Interesting.. Then came the day. Woke up early and met the rest of the platoon at JE Sports Stadium. Then positioned myself and eveything went as planned. Then after the event, I went to have lunch with Timothy at Long John Silver at IMM. Then the rest of the day I just stayed at home doing nothing.. Boring.. Then 9th August came (Today).. I thought of going out actually.. But in the end had to stay at home. Anyway there is nice programmes on TV in the evening. So staying at home wouldn't be that bad I hope.. Right now it's 5pm and I'm in font of my computer writing this entry for my blog.. PS: I just signed for a free web service.. What should I work on? Any suggestions for me? Put it as Comments! Thx.. ^^
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You might be wondering how my desktop looks like.. Well here it is!
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What lays inside the 'mysterious' box? (Lol...)
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Panaroma view of the Medal!
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NCC Best Unit Medal!!! COOL ~ YAY
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Awesome! The Goblet of Fire reacting!!
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Blur? Coz I was also running as I was taking a photo of a group of this girl running.. lol..
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... Life cycles on ..
Heyx.. Life goes on as normal. Right now chatting with choony on the phone. Talking and laughing at the same time. Funny guy he is. Anyway its 10 pm now. Today is Monday. School was dull as usual. Study Eat study. Same ol' bloody thing everyday. Today's humanities week was over finally. And lol.. Our banner is finally up hanging just now. It was supposed to be Humanities Week up there but Ms Ridz altered it to Humanities Day. Haha.. You should have seen me and Choon Lock's reaction when we saw the altered banner. OoOoOH~ I'm in the contingent. But goddamnit! this year's being in the contingent is nothing to brag about! We got such little things to do then its all over! Hmmmm.. This Friday is cross-country.. I'm not so excited bout it.. Nothing special man really... I'm the road marshal anyway.. Shit.. My mum naggin liao.. Have to go already.. Bummer.. Any tomorrow got NCC and got the stupid speech day rehearsal again. God! Please don't bore me to death tomorrow!!
Farhan a.k.a. [f]4rt3d
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