Sighx..

Finally.. I'm back connected once again to the world.. I've been wanting to post and entry to my blog for a long time. Now finally comes the chance.. Maybe I would forget what I might want to say but never mind.. Here it goes..

Today is the 28th of July 2005. Its 9pm according to my home clock. I still recall the day my internet was off. I was dead bored. I wondered how long this disconnection would last and so it lasted for 2 weeks. At least I was clever enough though to take pictures of certain interesting things thats been passing in my life. I had my councillor general meeting last Saturday too. Wow.. Councillors are the in-charge for Teacher's day! We really got a whole load of stuff to handle man.. I must say that there has got to be sweet and ugly things thats been happening.. Just last week on Monday, I had a VERY bitter quarrel with my parents. I think it was quite of a big quarrel I would say. I know what I did was partially right and wrong too. I mean its like what the fuck? I couldn't take the crap anymore so I full blasted my lungs off. I was rude I shall admit but hey I too have my own patience. And so the days after that bitter incident started to be way cold for me. Especially the day after that, Tuesday, I really got no mood for school or anything man. My eyes also hurt as I cried very badly the night before. But then things gradually got better - like now. Its normal now.

I noticed that I seem to be very blur nowadays. Homeworks seem to be increasing for me. I'm not getting enough sleep. I'm always thinking and planning. I try to smile most of the time too - I try. But still I think I kinda involve myself too much sometimes. I even got 3 white strand of hair I think. I don't exactly care bout that though (lol). Life has to be like this sometimes. I have to endure this. I believe there is more to come - definitely. Friends? Hmmm. Firstly I would like to say sorry to Arif first for not keeping my promise to keep his secret well. But Arif you should know that I told those secrets off to 2 people whom I trusted the most. I trusted them like how you trusted me. Maybe its my fault. I apologise ok? But please don't lose your trust in me though. Secondly, Timothy I really pity you a lot. I really dunno if I should tell you or not sometimes. Sigh... People are such hypocrytes. As your pal I really care about you man. But it seems like only I can be the one whom you can trust. You might not know what I mean but nevermind. At the very least, I let this off my chest too. I learnt not to bottle up my feelings anymore. Choon lock, you are one damn comical good friend I ever have! I'm so glad to meet you in my life man. But I must say that you do sometimes go overboard. You must control yoursef and put yourself in other's shoes. You are a really good and qualified person in everything and I can promise you that you have my fullest support in everything! 3/7.. Wow you people proved to be enthusiastic , rebeliious and fun people. I hope that such good spirits in class would last. I was pretty touched that people are concerned with one another when in trouble. Just yesterday for example, I got a piece of tiny glass into my eye. In to my eye man! At first I panicked but then eventually I also caught the attention of the teacher. Mdm Quek even wanted me to see the doctor straightaway at that point of time. It was crazy! But I think she was worried and concerned. People in the class were also concerned too and kept asking me how my eyes were. I said I was fine although the pain was still there. But eventually, the pain wore off as I belived that the tiny fragment must have come out or something - Thank Goodness!!

Life proved to be interesting all the time. But today I really had no mood for anything at all. I reaturned home late from the debate programme yesterday night and probably because of that, I did not manage to have enough sleep. I am tired now too but lemme finish off what I want to say first. I think I seem to be a little naughty at times too and I seem to be moody too. Just today, I made Ms. Norila angry. I felt so ashamed about it even now! How could I have been so naughty!! OMG.. I swear I won't ever do that again man! I'm so sorry Ms. Norila. I'd better be good and start to be calm. I musn't get stressed up over small things all the time. NCC? HMM.. Seem like nothing to say bout that as I'm quite fine with what I'm doing in there. But I would wish for 1 thing - I want to be Part A APC!!

I think that is all for now. I will keep my blog updated. It's for everyone to read but It does not need to be famous too. I'm quite fine. Alright, time for Maths homework now!! Yawn too..


Farhan a.k.a. [f]4rt3d