Name: [f]arhan
Age: 19
School: Singapore Polytechnic
MSN: devil_farted@msn.com

5/1 2007: Wei Jie Yan Ping Cheng Yi CK Chu Hui Jennifer Rou Fang Su Maw Atiqah Farah Ivan Shazwin

Poly mates: Jerome Winnie Jason Derrick Zacson Wai Leong Marcus Shazlin Lee Yen Candy Hian Theresa Wei Yang Tarmidzie

Other friends: Jocelyn Rozand Gilford Steffy Tresha Azlin Nicol Hamidah AKM

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(8:33 PM)

Supposed to be doing Madrasah project work. But I think I'll blog first. Ill make this entry my last one until my N level examinations are over which is 11th October.

First things first. I don't really know what happened in Ivan's blog. Seems like he was criticised by some junior (maybe). Sigh. Such acts people stoop to just because he/she hates the person. A cowardly act. Mrs Terrence asked me some English skills question like "What are the format for Report writing?" I couldn't answer. I don't remember doing much practise on that. I hope none of those will appear next Monday and make my national exam 'moment' a torturing one. I would the exam to be a smooth one for me. Been practising on Chemistry a lot these days. I'm happy to see that I am able to do well for Paper 3. As for Paper 4, I will keep on learning and taking note of the important ones. After Chemistry 5 year series, I will be moving on to Physics 5 year series. Science is my primary concern for the upcoming national exam. I've told mysel, I will get distinctions or rather, 3 points for my N Levels no matter what. That is a target I've set. I know I'm capable of doing better than anyone else. The discipline isn't there. My prelim's progress report is a disaster I thought. Even though I made it and knwo of friends who would appreciate having my kind of results. I'm utterly dissappointed and upset. I'm so geared to do better than this and I will.

I've not been getting enough sleep. Rou Fang said I got eyebags. Su Maw told me it wasn't that severe. Hers was worst LOl. Shazwin and me saw my 4/8 friends taking some pictures together touside their classroom. I didn't really care until he told me the reason they were taking photos. Today is considered their last day having normal lessons here. After N levels they would not need to come anymore. I don't really know how true that it but the point I want to make here is that, how would me and my friends feel if it was our last day here. I know everyone thinks that they can remain a secondary school student for life. It feels forever that I'm here. I've still got a year more (if god doesn't forbid) in this school. I think I am different from everyone in class that I know. I don't know if people, my friends, best friend have ever considered my character as negative or as being arrogant. To be honest, I am not one who loves to boast or even if I've doen it, it isn't really my intention to do so. I've changed from a talkative nerd to a lame joker. Or you might want to say your piece and disagree with me. I have a lot of opinions but have never really voiced it out. Why? Its because in this modern world and society, people don't heed advices anymore. It takes a certain level of maturity to be able to think like a civilised and to be reasonable person. Depressing really. They say Secondary school friends are usually your friends for life. I don't know how true it is but frankly, I somehow got that feeling and believed in that too.

Why are there so many new albums this semester ?? Thank god I have the fasting month to help me save my money to buy the things I need. I don't really buy people birthday presents. Not that I don't care but really, its because I don't really take note unless you know, the date is more prominent like for instance, near my own birthday too or anything like that. Arif's birthday coming. Anyone else's birthday coming ? lOl. Don't tell me with a motive. I'm not an equator santa clause. ^^

N-level draws near..

Whatever I can recall...

Monday.. Arif stained my shirt with his blood intentionally. Disgusted. lOl. Tuesday.. Boring school dayy. Mrs Terrence came back to teach us a little. Wednesday.. Went studying at mac wif frens. Talking cock session there was hilariously funny. Not to the extreme but yes, the jokes were laughable. TODAY.. In lethargy mode. Don't know why. Fasting? I don't know. Friday.. Haven't reach yett la..

Countdown 4 more days to BIG NATIONAL EXAMINATION. I used to think if I can survive PSLE, what more will this be. I guess that thinking is gone now. It concerns my LIFE and my FUTURE. Darn it. And the world have to make it so stressful. Played ermm.. (How to spell it seriously??) Daidi or erm taiti or WHATEVERLA in class just now. I still can't figure how the game goes. Seriously man. How to play that game ?? Nadiah had to coach me..

I wonder how it feels like after N-levels.. Shitt la. Still got O level MT and E Maths. GrR.

Friday's A maths paper is the first paper that affected me badly. I had no mood at all after the paper. It was total crap. How could I have not managed to be able to solve the EASY questions there ?? Enough said. I've decided to clarify all of the things I'm unsure of. Trigonometry done. Still got Functions and Integration. After that I will spend the rest of the time on science.

I don't enjoy going to classes when there is no friends whom I can comfortably talk to. I feel like I'd like to wrap it up by the end of this year but it is definitely impossible with my mom around. Monday was actually the day I pretty much dread for as I knew as well as everyone else that that's the day we get our Prelims results. Thankfully though, even though with my improper revision strategy, I still managed not to get any 'F' for any subject. However, it is still a great disappointment. 

It is the first time ever I feel pressurized about exams. I seriously feel the press and have been wanting someone to understand and talk to me about press I'm feeling right now. For that, I had the 'all of a sudden' feeling of getting a great and understand girlfriend. It is stupid. I mean I find quite hard to relate to guys most of the time coz they won't even bother most of the times. I guess that truly seperates the Men from the Women but erm yea.. Seriously, I want to feel more positive and be smiling. Many things goes on in my mind all the time. In truth, I am very upset over my performance in the Prelims. To be frank, I HATE peer pressure. I don't wish to engage in invisible competitions of examination marks but I can't help seeing other people better than me. I keep telling myself to go till the end. Just 2 more weeks and everything will be over. I have the strong feeling that I will revert back to normal after the major exams. I confess though that I am sick of examinations. Am sick. How I wish the education organisations here understands people of my category.

 

• Justin Timberlake - Futuresex/Lovesounds
• Fergie - The Dutchess

These are added to my music collection. Both albums are fantastic. Great music to start the party going and some real classic and jazzy (a little) songs to soothe after the adrenalised dance. Currently just can't stop hearing Christina Aguilera's 'Hurt'. Very emotional (But I'm not affected by it thankfully) and powerful-voiced song. She sings: "Would you tell me I was wrong  Would you help me understand  Are you looking down upon me?  Are you proud of who I am?"

A change in timetable starting from tomorrow. Many many Maths and MT periods. I must have the strength to finish the last few metres of my N'Level stream course. Probably a month more. I need to indulge myself in the word 'relax'. I have yet to.

` [F]arhan

Went swimming yesterday in the afternoon. It was more of a water wrestling which resulted in me having aches almost everywhere. The bad thing was I started with a slight fever and lethargy as I was also fasting.

Been playing Dota almost everyday now. I should be studying for my prelims next week. I have also yet to research for my Art exam. I haven't even decided on the subject of my drawing! Damnit.

It is the last week of daylight outdoor eating next week. The week after that, it is time to be fasting once again. When I think of it, it is just for a month. I need that extra diet 'routine' anyway as I've been feasting on JUNK food EVERYDAY. It is a miracle already that I do not get fat. I guess my body metabolism is just powerful. ^^

It is such a windy day today. I can even feel the STRONG wind in my house from where I am sitting. The weather is just weird nowadays.

Happy Belated Birthday Ivan. Sorry I couldn't come for your birthday celebration yesterday. ^^

8.05 in the morning...

My mum forced to me to fast today. aargh. I'm whining but whatever. I'll try to hold on till the day ends. I still want to enjoy food these few weeks actually ...

Added :

• High School Musical - Soundtrack
• Beyonce - B'Day

High School muscial was bought by my sister. Very kiddy songs. Great gathering songs when you are with friends. B'Day on the other hand as promised by Beyonce herself, contains an aggresive version of songs. A lot bass and beats. Only one slow song excluding the bonus song - Listen. I'd give this album 4 stars. After all, B'Day is Beyonce's birthday present for us - at a cost of $18.90.

` [F]arhan

A sense of relief for the moment that..

...2 N-level papers haved ended! MT and SS ! I'm done with them for the year. Okay. Here is the big thing : The whole class crapped after the paper juz now. We were dumbfounded by the issue that sec 3 topics did not come out. CRAP. To think that my full attention and focus was on sec 3 topics. Thk god there was still a question on Diplomacy and Deterrence or I would have just cried throughout the 1.5 hours in the hall. The time was not enough for me. I was struggling and rushing. And there I saw AKM could take a few secs nap on the table. My hand was working hard on the table. DaMN.

Just came back from playing soccer with the usual peeps. Arif gave me a red arm. Damn he pushed me hard and made me fall. It is still red with 3 dots on it which I don't know what it is either. Lol. He finally gave me back my Prodigy album. Lol. Burning 'em now to my music library.

I'm hungry.

Time for Dota games. Time to relax. I need more 'income'. I need it for MANY new and upcoming albums. Argh. Can I celebrate my birthday twice a year ? DaMN.

What a big day it has been. Went for the RSAF open house today with Arif. Coincidentally met Cheng Yi at Jurong East too. Upon arriving at Eunos MRT Station, we had to take the shuttle bus service to the Paya Lebar Airbase. Goodness. The queue was f**king long. But the good thing was, the chartered bus kept coming so we only had to wait for about 20 mins even though we were away from the shuttle bus area by about 350 people. The place was packed. Going to the main central open house area, I can already see big models of the modern airplanes. They are real machines just that they are only on display for today. Very very sophisticated machines Singapore is 'breeding' here on Singapore's grounds. Along the way, I met Zhi Ming and a few other NCC friends. Went to say 'Hi' then we moved on to see some small planes take off. Very very cool. But the best had yet to come. During the aerial display, It was truly beautiful and COOL. It makes you want to be the pilot up there where you are looked upon by the crowds below. I want to be that pilot! So cool. You people whould go and see it for yourself. I want to be a pilot!! I remember my ride in a helicopter in Australie when I was 12 years old. It was fun !

There was also this PS2 booth where you can play a fighter pilot game. You are the fighter pilot and in charge of the fighter planes. Apparently Arif is better than me in that game. I seriously can't figure out how to find the enemies with that joystick. Well he won himself a PSP cap anyway. Haha. Then when going back home, had to wait for about 25 mins to get to the shuttle bus again. How boring. Then had lunch at this unknown mall at Paya Lebar MRT Station. Pretty deserted really but not that bad. The bubble tea we bought is freakin' pathertic. I threw mine without even finishing it. Then at the MRT going back home, Arif was super duper annoying lol. He definitely did it on purposely la. I will get even with that boy. Everyone was staring at him - feeling disgusted. Haha.

I'm very tired right now. Sigh. The pictures are below ! Go have a look. Starring 2 picts of Arif's retarded face. Enjoy.