I was hoping and praying.
At least I could have improved it up ?
It didn't.
Where in hell can I go with 1.9. Feels like there's no oter options
left. I never foresee myself with a dead end. Wad de heck do I do now.
It's like a time bomb. The real pain will come when school's over. I
hated the things that surrounded me upon knowing just now. I feel like
giving it up. All of it. Start afresh with new people. But time will
be the cost. I'm alrdy 20 years old and have yet to enlist. I don't
want to be trash.
I disappoint myself and everyone. What's going on wif my 3 years here ?!
I'm stressed enough with upcoming competitions and the trainings. When
your not a good player. The better ones will say about you. What's
with the extra comments ? Jus fuckin play ur game if you dun wanna
help. I dun fuckin see why I should behave like a friend sometimes.
I have a team. But it's not my original team. People say my original
team is lousy. People always say. The feeling is gone. New feeling has
been set. It's a synthetic feeling. But I still play. It's like we
once sat down tgt and had aims and pointed out ways to improve only to
see most are gone just when it's finishing. Vivo.
I dun feel like doing anything now. I may enjoy now but come 2011, I
have to think of ways to save myself. What the heck. I've concluded:
it's not worth it.
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