Name: [f]arhan
Age: 19
School: Singapore Polytechnic
MSN: devil_farted@msn.com

5/1 2007: Wei Jie Yan Ping Cheng Yi CK Chu Hui Jennifer Rou Fang Su Maw Atiqah Farah Ivan Shazwin

Poly mates: Jerome Winnie Jason Derrick Zacson Wai Leong Marcus Shazlin Lee Yen Candy Hian Theresa Wei Yang Tarmidzie

Other friends: Jocelyn Rozand Gilford Steffy Tresha Azlin Nicol Hamidah AKM

October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010

It's been what? About a month since I talked here ? I think it's been more than that.

From the point where I lost my HTC Diamond 2. And when I got my IPhone 3G. Haha. Oh well. A LOT of things went on in my life.

At one point of time before I went Taiwan I think, I was feeling down. And after Taiwan trip, I managed to have a deep thought about certain and discovered I'm in pretty much of a mess. From my life to studies to CCA. Everything in me. I realise too that certain decisions I've made were deeply wrong. I should have done this and done that. Should have. Was alone in the bus on the way to town then.

I had the Taiwan trip from 10th November. It was a pretty short 1.5 weeks there. Great experience for me there. Learnt quite a lot of things. Everything. Culture and polo. Stayed with my teammates. Doing things together. Became sick on the 5th day. Honestly Zi Wei probably said it right, I did get tortured in some way due to the fact that I can't eat most of the things there. I wasn't complaining but it really got me sick when I come to think of it. Diaorrhea too - and it was a terrible one. It came to a point where I just had no appetite for the whole day on the 6th day. I skipped lunch and dinner. Thankfully I recovered that night before we went to Club. Haix.

But the diaorrhea didn't go away. Not even till today. And I recently got sick again. When we shifted to the hotel, I kind of liked staying there more. The place was super cold though. Did shopping and stuff with my mates. Bonded. And when we come back to SG, it was a shock to hear that we can't play for 2 months. I shan't elaborate further though. Haix.

Then shcool resumed and holiday mood was over once again. And it was time to study for MSTs again. That really sucks. And I just feel so damn disappoint with myself at the moment. I am damn CHUI to the max. I can work hard but what's the point when it's kind of too late.

FYP Grouping discussion yesterday took 1.5 hours to settle. Based in merits, I just tried to shut the fuck up and let em do the sorting. Oh well, I hope it all goes smoothly. And I can't even help my friend in last sem's work.

I just don't wanna fumble too much now. What's best for me I don't know. Sometimes I don't know who is willing to help me. In the past I've always cared much about others. And I think I'm just too kind.

Stop screwing up.

(10:34 PM)