Name: [f]arhan
Age: 19
School: Singapore Polytechnic
MSN: devil_farted@msn.com

5/1 2007: Wei Jie Yan Ping Cheng Yi CK Chu Hui Jennifer Rou Fang Su Maw Atiqah Farah Ivan Shazwin

Poly mates: Jerome Winnie Jason Derrick Zacson Wai Leong Marcus Shazlin Lee Yen Candy Hian Theresa Wei Yang Tarmidzie

Other friends: Jocelyn Rozand Gilford Steffy Tresha Azlin Nicol Hamidah AKM

October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010

Team talk last Sunday.
SPCPOC ended.
Normal trainings resumed.
Pathetically, paddling strokes have been corrected.
But still I'm the slowest.
Lack of mental drive.

It's the period again where I'm going thru stuff both at school and at home.
"I just cope" as Britney says it.
I am honestly immune to scoldings already. Like why did Jackson suddenly scold me when Wei Chen was nice enough to push me juz now. I have no idea really. I'll take it positively. I feel sometimes like I'm innocently wronged. And when I don't want certain things to be known and when things are going on almost fine something sudden will happen. Like in game or during training. It sucks being the slowest. It's actually depressing. The truth as to why I don't really ask ? I believe action speaks more louder. If I can do it and show the seniors that I can then there's no mouth activity needed. So that is why I am desperately trying to be better on water now. And I thought I just got out of my lowest moments a month ago. I don't want to enter in it again. School's starting next week already.

I should stop deluding myself that everything is fine. It is not fine. Everyone can smile but not me. In fact if you are my good friend enough, you will realise how much I force myself to laugh to make myself feel like everythings fine.

Ashley Tisdale and Cassie tracks leaked! High quality Itune rips too! Holy. Ashley's first single is great. So I put it as my blog song. Lol. I think it is good. It's premiered on US radios like today. If you don't know who she is, she is the Pink clad girl in High School musical movies.



I'm prepared for muscleache mania tomorrow morning. Going to hospital with my mom tmr. Wishing that her pain won't be so bad after the treatment.

Watched The Unborn with teammates last Sunday. 10 bucks for a dumb movie. Murder me please. Waste money. Haha.

Alright, mind's written out. I'mma go get a little rest.

(11:42 PM)