Name: [f]arhan
Age: 19
School: Singapore Polytechnic
MSN: devil_farted@msn.com

5/1 2007: Wei Jie Yan Ping Cheng Yi CK Chu Hui Jennifer Rou Fang Su Maw Atiqah Farah Ivan Shazwin

Poly mates: Jerome Winnie Jason Derrick Zacson Wai Leong Marcus Shazlin Lee Yen Candy Hian Theresa Wei Yang Tarmidzie

Other friends: Jocelyn Rozand Gilford Steffy Tresha Azlin Nicol Hamidah AKM

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Ok.
Bottomline - it was a complete slack these 3 days.

I had planned to run 12km behind my house this morning. But I woke up at 11am and didn't feel like going out. Lol.

During these 3 days I downloaded a total of 500 songs to my laptop. Mixed old and new. The 100 exclusive remixes I downloaded took up 1GB of space. But they are hell good remixes. Enough to last a club for a week. I got hooked to Poker Face remixes.

There's Lil Wayne's single to listen to but it's fugly. LOL. I mean he created an awesome rock track but his voice destroys it. I just think he's not made for rock music. Lol. Wait and see for his 'Rebirth' coming April this year.

Lilly Allen's 'The Fear' EP leaked. Well not really, just that someone bought it and shared it with the rest online. Can't help it even if it is called illegal. Singapore doesnt have Itunes store and the EP is available digitally only. SO fuck that really. And one of the song's title is 'f*** you' which is super nice track (especially the lyrics lol). It goes something like "Fuck You, Fuck You very very much". LOL. DAMN they censored the word fuck. But the leaked demo wasn't censored but had a ridiculous quality so the latter was better. The 4 track EP was good. Expecting a lot from this album. It will be out on my Birthday. But of course I will have it earlier. Anytime next week I bet. :)

Christina Aguilera has a new track for The Spirit soundtrack and it is a really nice track. 7 Mins long but it's good. Haha.

Alright enough with the music already.

CNY holidays ends today. Injuries and aches all recovered. Prepared for more aches for tomorrow's training. Gonna try and learn a new skill with Hafi tomorrow. Ah and we are buying wet suits for the first time tomorrow. I'd say white is cool. Lol but then again we are super tanned so it might not be a good matching. We shall try it out and see tomorrow.

Sometimes I wonder why I don't have white hair. Haha! These recent 3 weeks, I've been worried and scared. It's been ugly really. But like I said, I cope with it. :)

I had a few moment of thought 2 nights ago before I slept. I stupidly felt disappointed but I keep telling myself I know my own limits. Forgot to mention my mum have given me the green light to quit religious class. that was the last thing in my life that keep me connected to my own religion apart from prayers of course. Since young, I've always had classes and it was consecutively on every year. I have mixed feeling knowing that I'm quitting it. I hope I won't stray away. Haha I know I won't.

The Wedding Game movie is not nice.. Haha..

Few trainings back Wei Liang said I should eat dinner often with them and bond. And I told him "We are already bonded enough what". Lol. He said " Where got". I didn't know wad to think when he said that. It was true that I've not fully bonded with my own team yet. People may see me as being anti social and such. Haha. Honest truth ? I'm not. Oh come on. People who knows me can vouch for me. I did fine with my DASE classmates but for canoe polo friends, hmm a little problem for me. Lol. I seriously just don't know why. It's just like that. Just so anyone would know: I can go on talking ublynonsense stuff for almost 6 hrs straight please. But even when I'm quiet during trainings, I observe - like a lot. Lol. During game and after game whatever it is. Bottomline - I have my own reasons as to why I don't go out after trainings tgt often. Lol.
And Wei Liang says that my hand looks retarded (as in literally) when I try to shoot a ball. Hmm.

A lot of thoughts unsaid.

(8:49 PM)

Listened to:

What the hell was I thinking ?

It was short.
It was fun. Awesome friends met.
And it's really ended.
What a decision made.

I accept..

..all of the wrong ways that I have led myself with last year. I realise it all and I will learn - more than anyone around me I hope. I've got 3 major things to focus in my life last few months unlike my friends. I daresay. It's alright, it's fine. This won't hinder me anymore from whatever I wan right now. I understand that my new stand might make me regret in the future after poly life. I will try not to fret. Bottomline: I will cope.

2009's arrived.