Frustrated...
Thats what I feel now. I'm freaking frustrated. Over what the hell I myself sometimes dunno what it is. My EOY results probably? WTF~ My science was a complete mess. COMPLETE MESS. I dunno what exactly happened to my science at all. My maths was totally gone too. I've been practising my maths every week. Just what the heck about me that made me lost terrible marks. Combined Humans. was fairly well-done. But if i fail my overall for that, I sure do not know what to say. Art, I got 39.. out 100. And somehow that Ms Ruth Ng wants me to drop art. True or not true I don't know. I won't drop it though. It doesn't matter if I fail. I know I can draw.
Was working on the creativity show for the councillors recently. There was quite of a huge rush here and there. Me, Choon Lock and Clara stayed behind till 9pm under my block yesterday. We sort of settled the magnifying glass prop. It was a total hard work although I didn't do much of it. And so the show was today and we sort of did quite well in it. Our play did gave the lower secondary pupils some idea. I hope they really know what to do. But I wasn't happy about it all was Ek ping. It so damn... errrghz... I mean its like where was she when we needed her. Shes like darn good at organising it but the work are left with other people to complete for her. That frustrates me too. And some more with my lethargic self today, I was like in no total modd for anything.
Today I also like sort of last minute gave punishments for late-coming (finally!). Gave detentions to a total of 12 people. There are peopel not happy... Maybe? I dunno. But I swear I want to do my job once again. I want to prove Mrs Terrence that I am capable. I somehow gets the feeling that she doesn't trust me.
I write this entry because I just somehow want to let it out now. MUM I DIDN'T FAIL SOME OF MY SUBJECTS ON PURPOSE. You'd think that I wanted to fail it on purpose?? I did studied for it. I cannot blame the fasting month for this. But I admit that at some points during the exam period, I was worn out badly. This suck. I'm so sick of your scoldings and nag. I really know how to take care of myself. I'm like 15 years old now? I seriously can distinguish the bad and the good VIVIDLY. And one last thing, I would really love if my parents would trsut me more in whatever things I do. I want support. My mum is now like wanting me to quit councillorship right away. What the hell?
