Help..

But do I really need help? Or is it just me? What the hell. I'm writing this entry not to attack anyone but to really pour out my feelings and what I've thought about. Won't go much into the previous days activites.

I'm against everyone. I'm seriously feeling that way even towards my close friends. Ridiculous you might say? But you're not me. In the past I have said myself to be a calm and patient person, but I'm not anymore. Things around me have made me change this way. I'm freaking observant about certain things man. Let me start uring out things one by one. Firstly I'm not happy. Not happy at all with everything. I have someone who hates the malays. I have friends who are goddamn flirt. I have friends who are goddamn showoff. I have friends who are frekin' active to the core. I have friends who does stupid things. And lastly I have friends who just talks about girls and love almost everyday. I shan't name them out as I don't want to attack them just anyhow. I'm not trying to make an enemy portal for myself but until I get this out of me, I will continue to be temperamental and moody. People make fun of me. People call me pimple people call me gay. I'm so sick of this teases. I really do not want to hear anymore of those 'insults' to me. Goddamnit, if you own the most beautiful face on this earth then go ahead and make fun of a human like me. Secondly, is it just natural that male teens nowadays talk about women only? I can't stand this shit they are talking about. Its always about women. Why can't there aomething else new? You people get yourself tied up in friendships and relaionships then you want to our it out. I mean I don't mind you pouring it out but you are constantly doing it man. Freaking crap.

Thirdly, theres people whos ego and confidence level just shoot up high when something good just strikes them. Hey man fuck you. Will you please be original? You start to think that everything you do is right and perfect. Why don't you just sarch your own conscience? Oh and not forgetting the 'humble' sucker from NCC. You can just load that crappy humble crap of yours UP YOUR ASS if you want to. I can't stand your pretence any longer. You just lost my respect freak. Racist? Against the malays? Two words - SHUT UP - Yes my community seems to be a little rebellious but can you just ignore that? Can't stand suckers who criticize the malays man. Lastly, you think you have family problems? Well theres a billion teens who can say so. I'm telling you to THINK yourself about everything. Everythign and anything at all that you've done. TRUST ME - you will learn something. I did.

There. I've not fully let everything out but these are all I can think of for now. I must spit it out somehow. I just keep on thinking that there are people who needs a hard knock in their life. Freakin' Fuck.

PS: Fasting month starts next week man. Geez. Back to where it all ended...