Sux. More suckier than ever..
Sucks man..
More suckier than ever and ever.. Friday NCC training totally depressed me down.. Not that I want people to look at me high but.. Fuck man.. Is it just my fault or something?? Or is it just that I'm not good enough? Damnit.. I'm a quite and timid person in NCC? Fuck that! To think I resisted my weariness during the training! Does what Ten Chin say means I can't even qualify for the UDI post or something? I can't be that lousy! Those awards I got during my junior years just can't be meaning nothing! I expected myself to be praised! Just exactly who do I blame?? Me or just NCC?? Should I give up now and just slack all the way? Should I? Should I? NO! I chose the path not to be depressed all the time and to always stay happy and desicive.. I can't go back on my own words.. I dun care whatever I've return here.. Whatever's happen just seems to make me feel NCC suck and is unfair.. Nevermind.. I'll stay focused and see if I can carry on.. Shit man.. Do I really suck that bad?!
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Today Saturday.. woke up in the morning.. still feeling fucked up over the event above.. Then played computer all the way till tuition at 2pm.. Now waiting to go to JP with my dad.. Maybe later buying Gwen Stefani's album.. Then at night I shall full blast the house with Destiny Child's 'Lose my Breath'!
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